peer contemplation

o1.05.09
somewhere in ilocos sur

we are thought to get along with our peer group.
in my reorganization of selves,
i'm contemplating who i really relate to.
currently, i feel out of place with my "expected" peer group,
on top of just feeling out of place.
in studying "essence" and "personality",
i find sense in my connection to elders and children.
i guess it is the simplicity and unecessary chatter.
together, we are shaped to learn and to share.

family is an interesting factor.
given i am blessed with unconditional love of my own nucleus.
i also see what i have learned in growing up
that has shaped my personality,
not all of which i want to nurture.

love, however, i wonder
if planted in the essence of all sentient beings,
is a quiet seed
waiting to be noticed.
uncovered only by the consciousness of the container.
a gift from the unknown
for those who wish to know more.
is not love the thirst for knowledge
and the desire for oneness?

the differences...
been dreaming about past peer groups
and current lone rangers
dreamers of every age.

just needing to find comfort
in my small contribution to it all
to know it comes from my essence
as an offering of progress and spirit
to the collective effort
toward higher existence
for all.