balikbayan journals

o1.03.09
vigan, ilocos sur

the lush is green.
the breeze is full.
old shells where lines continue
with the face of age.
mechanic with emotion,
feelings
are energy floating about
tumbling and sticking to one another
framed with the illusion of progress
or evolution.
to a certain degree, we adapt
in our own way, find better ways
to deal with situations
better reasons as to why things happen.
validate the whys.

surrounded by mountains and ocean breeze,
i question the whereabouts of my being.
the map of selves i have been obsessed with all my life.
am i coming to a progressive understanding or
am i validating where i wish to be
and am not yet really there?
either way, there is a magnetic center
somewhere.

there has been conscious decisions
and unexplainable choices.
there is a knowledge and always emotion.
to observe is to be quiet.
to listen is to be still.
i want to learn the most difficult to face
so i can grow toward my higher ....
even if only a vision now.
each moment, an opportunity
to remember this,

express only love.

how appropriate that today is my father's birthday.